When I see you smile

So much griping, so little time.

First off, I"m SO glad my THursday nights have The OC again... it just didn't feel right without it.

That being said, last night's episode was slow and boring and in the previews...please, do I care that they might get kicked outo f their private school? Uh yeah no not really.

This morning when I drove into work (after having paid effing $3.03 for gas...wtf), When I See You Smile came on the radio...

Every time I hear that song, I can't help but feel kind of sad....
See my first bf was an ass who screwed me over in more ways than anyone should ever, ever have to experience. ANd i was waiting for my Look Of Regret from him (more on that later...but the Look of Regret is what i require after every breakup)...
Fast forward, I dated Don but he was SO not for me and I in turn effed him over really badly (and the poor guy didn't deserve that... to this day he was the best boyfriend i ever had), and i was canoodling with Adam around the time Don and I were breaking...so i was going through serious emotions...

And then one day, out of the blue, I got a voicemail from my first bf...apologizing for what he did to me, and how he knows what it was like because someone ended up doing the same to him...
It was my look of regret.... I couldn't breathe I was so emotional. And at that time, my other ex bf Don left a voicemail right after, and he said "this is how i feel about you" and then played When I See You Smile...I was a basket case at that point, between both emails (two Looks of Regret in a 5 minute span?!)....

So every time i hear that song, which is pretty rare since it's an old song... I get kind of sad, and think about how what I did was so wrong and I sure hope he doesn't think of me the way I think about K~.

So the Look Of Regret...

After every breakup, there's always The Look of Regret. The "Damn...why did we break up again" or "wow,she looks fantastic...sigh..."...

With K~, it was that phone call, almost 3 years later...
With Don, it was that voicemail with the song...
I wasn't with Brian long enough to even make it worth anything (I dumped him over the phone and never saw him since...not even worth mentioning but we were together long enough for him to consider me his GF)
With Adam, the first time...it was back when we were in class (Data Structures i believe)...he was on one side, Nat was on the other...and halfway through class he whispers "mmm you're still wearing Japanese Musk?"...and Nat on the other side whispered "OMG he remembers your perfume! That's the look of regret!!!"....

Onto other subjects
...um...everything I'm thinking about I can't put for public viewing lol, so I'll keep those thoughts in my head!